"Here I end this reel. Box--(pause)--three, spool--(pause)--five. (Pause. Perhaps my best years are gone. When there was a chance of happiness. But I wouldn't want them back. Not with the fire in me now. No, I wouldn't want them back."
What fire is Krapp speaking of above? Certainly not a physical one and doubtful of a mental fire. Krapp's fire lies in a bottle. His drink comforts him and befuddles his mind. He no longer trusts himself and therefor relies upon his tape. He has created a space in the world for him alone. Coming to terms with his past, he mocks his previously youthful voice and aspirations.
It didn't even occur to me that Krapp's "fire" might be alcohol; good idea. After all, drinking is the classic prescription for severe, unmanageable regret.
ReplyDeleteAnd if they don't have booze, Beckett's other characters simply use other strategies—like cheerfulness, for Winnie—to avoid confronting reality.